emma ruth

i've been feeling reaallly self concious lately. and in the word of my sister, "sensative". i actually think i am, but sometimes it really does have to do with the situation. i mean if someone called me stupid, of course i'll react to it. but my point is, i think its easier said than done when someone tells you to "like yourself for who you are. except the fact that you are unique and your own person." it takes a lot to look in the mirror and say, "You are beautiful. In every single way. Words won't bring you down. No. No. Words can't bring you down today." ;] Really, it takes alot of guts, and confidence that some people just have difficutly getting. and some people have too much confidence and stare at themselves in the mirror every morning telling themselves they look hot and that they're the sexiest person to ever walk the face of the earth. but of course its not true. no offence.. i think if you take baby steps in accepting yourself, it could actually work. like, instead of seeing your flaws and hating yourself for having them -- embrace them. but don't let it empower you. because then you just lose yourself.

my flaws? oh the list goes on and on. my eyes squint at the end 'cause i have chinese in my blood,  i have messed up teeth, but i'm getting braces in the summer. i only have to wear them for a year and a half. not even two years. my body isn't perfect. i have some butt and thighs and a stomach. but suprisingly enough, i'm still a size one. maybe its because i'm short, i don't know. i'm learning how to eat healthier and i walk the dog everyday now. since i'm too lazy to actually excercise. but like i said, i'm still learning. one day i'll make it to the gym. might even walk there too. so now tell me -- what are your flaws? then think about the brighter side of it. how can you embrace it? and how can you make yourself feel better? having plastic surgery or starving yourself does not count. x] i'm serious.